Saturday, January 14, 2006

The past week has been a hectic week. My grandma fell sick...very sick. When I was told that my uncle doesn't want further treatment to be done on her so that she does not get tortured further, I was devastated. I was unable to accept the fact that someone I love so dearly is going to leave me. I didn't want her to go just like that. I wanted to see her but there was only so little that I could do. I could'nt drive myself to malaysia to see her. I couldn't oppose to my uncle's decision to let her be treated. The only thing I could do was pray for her at home, hoping that someone would do something to save her. I was glad that they finally made the decision to send her back to singapore to be treated. Only then, was I more relieved. At least there is still some hope. But some had told me that it was selfish to let her hang there...if she wishes to go, we should let her go. Just take it that I am selfish but I really couldn't stand there and watch her go. On the first day that she was discharged in, she was all skin and bones, breathing with the help of oxygen tubes and was semi unconscious. It was painful to see her in this state but we had to hold back my tears. The last thing that she wants to see is us crying over her.

It was the first time in my life that I feel death crawling so closely into my life. I am not a strong person by nature, I think I will never be. Sometimes I just wonder how am I ever to get through all these inevitables in my life.....

She is better now though. She is off the oxygen tube, out of intensive ward and is finally on food. Have been rushing from school to hospital almost everyday and made a point to stay with her the whole of today. I know these aren't enough to compensate her for the times that I neglected her when she was living with us. But we have promised her with lots of Mac's ice cream cones, fish fillet, KFC's whipped potatoes and countless mahjong sessions with my friends...heez...yea...my grandma is that funky...

Thanks Michelle, for visiting my grandma and cheering her up with mahjong.
Thanks Shirley, Qianling and Joanna for wanting to visit her and constantly asking about her condition.
Thanks Clarice, for consoling me when I was really down...

Thanks my friends, for all your prayers and blessings...she is better now...and thanks for being there for me. Love you guys!

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So called: Weitian

Self Proclaimed: Esther

Has been on earth for : 21 years

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1.To give tuition and start earning

2.To do voluntary work

3.To be a good gal to my grandma

4.To love all around me

5.To improve my CAP!

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